Friday, September 23, 2011

Police, Propane and Providence


Friday, September 17, 2011:
Driving north into town to run a few errands, an elderly woman pulled out of a parking lot to my right and, in spite of my best efforts to avoid her, slammed heavily into the passenger side of my van. The impact sent me careening across the southbound lanes of the highway and my van did not come to a stop until I was in a parking lot of a local propane dealer.

As I stood outside of my vehicle, examining damage and trying to stop the shaking, I quickly could see God's fingerprints all over this event.

1. My children were not with me in the car. Had they been, more than likely they would not have been injured, but I know the impact would have been terrifying for them; especially my son who sits in the passenger seat and whose door took the brunt of the force.

2. A policeman was sitting in the parking lot adjacent to the one the woman exited and witnessed the entire event. This was an enormous blessing because a stranger immediately approached him and told him that the accident was my fault. The policeman calmly stated, "I don't know who you are or what you think you saw, but you are wrong."

3. Did you read the sentence above which stated that I sailed across the opposite lanes of the highway? Now, I know Fayetteville is not a large town, but at 4:45 on a Friday afternoon, any area of that stretch of highway is constantly filled with traffic flow. And in that instant that I was hit, there was NO ONE COMING down that stretch of road.

4. Neither the woman who hit me nor I were injured in the accident.

5. And, my good (and hilarious) friend and coworker, pointed out the blessing that came from the place where my van finally stopped. Thank God I did not continue to fly into a propane tank!!
*Can't you just hear the talk? "What was that explosion? OH! That's little old speech teacher Nancy careening into a propane tank on Huntsville Highway!"

God was all over it. He saw it coming (long before the point of impact). He was at the ready. He's not finished with me. And He has a plan.

Many questions now remain and are consistently tossed my way on a daily basis:
Will your van be totaled?
If so, how much money will you get?
Will the insurance company try to railroad you?
What will you do in the meantime?
All good and legitimate questions. But, I knew then and I know still today, God has that all figured out. Already. He had it figured out before the accident occurred. And His will WILL be done. Because God is God and that's enough for me. Really. It is.

The past week has consisted of almost immediate arrangement of a borrowed car until I could get a loaner, laughter over my deep-seeded need to be the center of attention, splitting headache and stiffness, phone calls, unsolicited advice from well-meaning friends, and the momentary breakdown that occured as all of the hullabaloo settled down.

I thank my Great Love for the blessings listed above and for so many others unmentioned. I am certain there are many other blessings of which I am even unaware.

I shared my experience once again last night at work, and my wonderful (and hilarious) co-worker, upon hearing my list of blessings, stated:

"OK, that's it. You ARE indeed the favorite."

:-)

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Victims

Ever notice how COMFORTABLE we are on this subject?

Victims: Some of us are very comfortable being victims. We are very accustomed to blaming others or circumstances, deflecting responsibility, wallowing in our 'feel-sorries'. It seems so easy at times to be self-pitying and sad - takes the weight of responsibility for our joy off of our own shoulders.

"You don't understand what I'm going through."
"Just wait till you face what I'm facing."

Victims: Others of us are very comfortable placing others in this category.

"Bless their hearts."
"If it weren't for bad luck, you'd have no luck at all."

It doesn't matter how much others strive for victory, we strive (even UNintentionally) to keep them in their 'victim-hood' for whatever reason. Maybe we desire to rescue them. Maybe they draw us in with their victim mentalities. Or maybe we're jealous of their victory. And it's easier to push them back into their victim-ness in order to make us feel comfortable.

It's all about our comfort zone.

Ever notice people's reaction when someone faces a trial or a tragedy with grace and faith and peace? We praise them. We sit in awe of them. We applaud their faith.

Why?

We are surprised by it. In awe of it. Because it is not 'natural.' We look at others facing difficult times with trust in their Father as if they are aliens.

Which, in all actuality, they are.

I was recently told by a close friend who is facing similar challenges to mine, "You are so positive that I just want to choke you." (In Christian love of course).

And, sure enough, there was someone following close behind at the ready to point out all the times when I am not positive.

"Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is - His good, pleasing and perfect will." Romans 12:2

This life: NOT. ABOUT. ME. It's not about you either.

So, I strive to let go. Move forward. Forge ahead.

And there are those cheering me on. And those so undeniably uncomfortable with that.

I am moving from Survivor to Victor. I am not be there yet. But, I am steadily and unwaveringly on my way.

I urge you to do the same.