Treasure in the Quiet

In this time of persistent shouting over one another to be heard, 

I had decided I was in need of a little quiet time.

From myself.

I don't want to be another voice diligently striving to be heard over all others while living my routine little life.

Unchanged.

So, I decided to be quiet.

To be still.

To soak in life.

And my family.

And my Great Love.

And breathe.

And be quiet.

And then heartache struck.

And I lost my friend.

The one who told me to 'Do My Reason'

And it knocked me flat down.  And, I didn't want to get back up.

I was sad.  And I cried.

(Truth: I still do. Often.)

And I struggle(d) not only with not wanting to do my reason anymore.

But with no longer being sure of what my reason is.

Just another voice.

In an arena of screaming voices.

All making noise.

And none being heard.

It's amazing what can happen when we decide to hush.

Be still.

Be quiet.

It is then, we can actually hear.

And Listen.

And what we hear can be 

Life

Changing.

When I decided to hush, I was truly able to hear, so much more clearly, a call laid on my heart.

I've been on a journey.

Getting my life on track.

Providing for and taking care of my children.

Cleaning up financial disasters.

Making plans for the future.

And I would regularly worry, filled with anxiety.  And lament over the same struggle, time and time again.

Until I decided to hush.

It was then, I could hear.  And the message was so clear.  And beautiful.  And freeing.

It's all so simple!

How could I not see this before?

And I believe, with all of my heart, this is where God was waiting for me to be.

The fog has lifted.

The darkness is breaking with the dawn.

I know where He is leading me now.

And I am not sure when I have been this excited about what He has in store.

Freedom.

From worry.

From the ties of this world.

From the earthly strongholds that have chained me.

Freedom.

Is within reach.

And it all began.

With

Quiet.

So, I don't know how much more talking I will do.

I am still uncertain of my future as a blogger.

I just wanted to encourage you 

In a world of 

Voices

Shouting

Competing

to be heard

There is often great treasure in 

Quiet.

Nothing New

This is not a deep post.
Truth:  My Great Love is percolating a strong, dark brew within me right now and it is not quite ready for consumption.  By me or anyone else.
And when it is, it will be 
Strong.
And Bold.
So, let's let it perk a little longer.

This post is a little lighter, but still relevant.
Here we go.

So, we are doing "Christmas" a little differently this year.

It's called a Nothing New Christmas; an idea I copied from a coworker who shared with me last season.
And I am so stoked about it.

I am, as are countless others around me, weary of the lack of focus on the true meaning of Christmas. We talk about it.
We lament on it.
We complain about it.
And we do little to change it.

So, I am trying to take baby steps (instead of following my deep desire to completely, radically upset the apple cart) to reboot my family into seeing Christmas a little differently this year.

A few of our traditions have always included:
Baking fresh pumpkin bread loaves for all the neighbors on my street on Christmas Eve which are hand-delivered by my little Elf Crazies.
Making a goody basket filled with homemade and store-bought goodies, fresh fruit and nuts and then hand-delivered to the Sheriff's Department on Christmas Eve as an appreciation for those working to protect us on the holiday.
When finances allowed (which hasn't been for last couple of years), adopting a needy family and anonymously giving to them on Christmas Eve.
Reading the Christmas story from Luke 2 as our bedtime story on Christmas Eve.

And we don't do Santa.
Never have.
(That's a big one that always gets raised eyebrows.)

This year, Nothing New.
No new gifts.
Sure, they can be new to us: thrift store, handmade, etc.  But, nothing brand new from a store.
My goals:
A. To get my children more involved in the gift-giving process.  I do not have extra funds most of the time to dole out allowance much less pay for them to give gifts to each other or extended family.
B. To get the focus even less off of receiving gifts on Christmas morning.

Each year, they begin giving me their 'lists' around this time because, quite frankly, I ask so that I can begin budgeting and shopping ahead of time.  Already, more than two months in advance, our focus is on receiving.

I want Christmas to be about:
Christ
Family
Gratitude
Peace
Focus

I want to take active steps to MAKE that happen instead of simply complaining that it doesn't.

I share these things, not to toot my horn, but because I want your ideas too.  What does your family do that is different, to take the focus off of presents?
Let's share and be creative and, together, work on raising a generation prepared to abandon the spirit of entitlement that Christmas has generated in years past.

Please share, won't you?

Anyway...

Sometimes

You just don't know why you try anymore.

This World

It is overwhelming.

You work.
You give.
You help.
You encourage.
You over-extend.
You sacrifice.
You listen.
You love.

You.Stand.Firm.

Every now and then your encouragement goes unacknowledged.
Your work is unappreciated.
You are ignored.
Passed by.
Or perhaps, even
*gasp*
Unfriended.

Two Things:

1:
A wise man who helped me through a terribly dark time in my life told me this:
You do these things:
These acts of service, loving gestures, share words of encouragement and share Jesus,
Not to BE ok, but because you ARE ok.

Christ has made you ok.
Right-standing with God.
And that right-standing is what equips you to go out into the world and share Christ
In Love.
Christ.  
All we need.
He is our Redeemer.
And Sustainer.
And ultimately all we need in the 'approval department.'

2:
"Whoever sows to please their flesh, from the flesh will reap destruction; whoever sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers."~Galatians 6:8-9

Friends,
Don't give up.

This world is a negative dark place.
It is attacking our families.
It is trying to infiltrate the body of believers.

We must stay focused.
Encourage one another.
Keep our eyes on the prize.

We must not give up.

Not sure why  you do the good that you do?

Do it anyway.

Thoughtfulness

Sometimes you just need to know someone cares.

You know the feeling?

We all get wearied with our duties.
Working.
Mothering.
Teaching.
Balancing.
Juggling.

And in the midst of our juggling, it is easy to wonder at times if anyone out there knows.
Or cares.

And then...

I have this sister who is lightyears ahead of the rest of us on thoughtfulness.
She was the first one to call me when I faced foreclosure the first time.
And the first one at my door with offers to help.
She is the one who made me the blanket while battling cancer.
She's amazing.

And somehow, she is always the one to ask me - at just the right time - 
"So, Nancy, how are you?"

And she means it.  She wants to know.  She asks me how I'm managing all that I juggle; how I'm doing financially; how I am emotionally.  And she doesn't ask in a nosey way.  She will even apologize if she is making me uncomfortable.  And I remind her that I am as transparent as can be.  Her concern is a sincere, honest, peering into my heart kind of way.
And it is always perfect timing.

I have another sister who is just as thoughtful in a different way.
She sees me and my crazies and my juggling self and she asks herself what she can do to be of practical service to me.  So, she coupons and she shops and every few weeks, I walk into church service to a bagful of items she's set aside specifically for me.  Practical things: shampoo, soap, food, and fruit roll ups for the kids.  Thoughtful beyond words.

These sisters see me.  In the midst of my mess I call life as I juggle and work and teach and balance this path I've been led to, they ease my walk with their thoughtful encouragement.
They live the words:

But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called “Today,” so that none of you may be hardened by sin’s deceitfulness.'~Hebrews 3:13

Whether it's a word or a deed, encouragement and thoughtfulness are priceless in my book.

Today, I am grateful for this.

Reboot

Do you ever wish they made brain wash?

Something that you could use to wipe out all of the negative and do a clean sweep of your mind?

Fresh beginnings.
New perspectives.

Sounds great.

But, lately, my life has been a bombardment of negative.
From political arguments to fault finding people to judgmental attitudes to laziness to narcissists.
I. Am. Exhausted.

I know you understand.

And I've sat back for the last several days; tried to do less talking and more observing.
And breathing.

I need to do that more.
Breathe.

And let the world around me turn without me.
Nothing will fall apart if I simply take a step back.
And breathe.

It's not easy for an extrovert who's at ease when the center of attention.
But I need it.  

In my observations I've seen campaigns for 40 days of prayer and 31 days of new.
And it got me to thinking.
I need a time commitment like that.
But, just for me.
I need to mentally refocus.
And clear my head of all of the toxicity around me.
The world is the way that it is.
I need to be stronger to face it.
To raise my children to face it.

So, today is October 1.
Perfect time for a mental hiatus.
And I am committing the month of October to nothing but positivity.
And focus.

I am reading nothing but the Word of God for this month.
I am spending time with only those who uplift me.
And I will choose new people to uplift in return.
I will commit to not complain.
And I will ask you to hold me accountable.
I will set the boundaries against negativity.
And make Gratitude lists.

And breathe.



Reboot.